my brain hurts...but I love you

My brain is zoned out something crazy.

So, my goal was to finish the rough draft of the memoir for January 1st. Though that did not happen, I am so close to the end it's baffling almost to believe I have been doing this for so long. Over a year writing. My brain is starting to give way.

Towards the second half of last year I swore off reading anyone else's books until I finished the rough draft of my own. I have not read a book in months and it's starting to bother me. I have barely even written in my personal journal. No bullshit, that I need to find time to do because it's one of the ways I keep my balance. Last time I wrote in a journal was Christmas. Not a good look, I'm usually every day.

It's time. It's time to get this done. It's time to feel this manuscript in my fingers, and start editing something that isn't attached to my computer screen. It's time to allow myself some outside literature and get that reading muscle stimulated.

Only about twenty pages left, I estimate...it's the final stretch.

Dear memoir....my brain hurts, but I love you.

LA Laker Matt Barnes' message for Bethany...

Tonight 1 York Street in NYC entertained a great event. The Maserati dealership was the home of LA Laker, Matt Barnes' non-profit Athletes vs. Cancer Silent Auction. Tyson Beckford, Melyssa Ford, and a number of who's who was in the house, but the cause itself is what hit hardest.

Unbeknownst to me, Barnes lost his mother to cancer. He spoke briefly, over the drunken murmurs of the disrespectful guests taking full advantage of the open bar, and opened up about the personal reasons why he started Athletes vs Cancer. It was definitely a moment. I have a lot more respect and insight for Matt and his fiance than I ever had prior, Basketball Wives included.

Earlier this year, my boyfriend lost his uncle to a bout with cancer. For years my best friend, Bethany, has been a cancer survivor. Just recently it was brought to my attention that her remission has subsided, and she's back on the fight once again. I went to this event looking for network opportunities, and I left with nothing/no one on my mind but her.

To my friend, my hero, my love...LA Laker, Matt Barnes has a message for you baby girl...